Content Warning: This post is how I am feeling about the second wave of pandemic that has hit India. Please feel free to bookmark and read later if this adds to anxiety.
I have a post in my drafts. It was meant to be some thoughts and reflections on the annual anniversary of the pandemic. When I started writing that post, I went back to that afternoon in mid March of 2020 when this crisis was named a pandemic. And then what followed with countries closing their borders, going into a lockdown and likewise. To me I was rewinding and thinking through how it all began.
I am not going back to that post now. Not yet. Through the year that passed by, I worked, cooked, worked out, moved houses, supported family in a crisis and looked for that glimmer of hope.
Then January and February of this year were that hope. In many ways, it started to feel like we had left the pandemic behind. The sense of normalcy came when with the masks and sanitizers, people started to return to work, visiting close family and friends, going on staycations and building on memories to make 2021 safer, healthier and happier.
Four months into 2021 and it’s that deja-vu that doesn’t let me write a word now on the pandemic.
The cases are rising, people are struggling and dying and I can’t wait for 2021 to be over. Just like 2020.
We are all indoors, not meeting people we love and care about, talking to friends over video calls and working from home. Just like 2020.
I call up parents on both sides and ask them to exercise caution and not step out for any errand, come what may. I ship them things they may need so they stay safe. Just like 2020.
At work and in meetings we check in on each other making sure we are all okay and staying safe. Just like 2020.
Days feel longer and months are flying by. Just like 2020.
Hospitals are full, beds are not available, medical infrastructure is crumbling, doctors and nurses are stretched. Just like 2020.
Every little uneasiness or itch in the throat scares people. A cough or a sneeze turns heads around and if someone is out sick, they must be down with COVID. Just like 2020.
Living in the deja vu is not my thing. Not at all.
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It really sucks what’s happening there and I can imagine the sense of deja vu is not a nice one at all! Hoping you’re ok and this passes soon xx
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I am okay. Trying to stay as much indoors as possible. Thanks much, Sanch! Really hope to see this phase end.
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What to say ?
Only and only pray to God for the people of whole universe to remain happy , healthy like before 2019 they were .
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I am sorry this is happening. Take good care of yourself and hopefully it will pass sooner than last year.
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Being busy , tired and stressed out . Its everywhere in the world .
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Parul, I can understand your deja-vu feelings as I myself go through such feelings now and then. It is quite natural for most of us as we are helpless watching things around us and being unable to control happenings.
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So true! I wish we get to the end of this tunnel. Please take care and hope this passes soon.
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I can totally relate to your post, Parul and I can tell you there are many of us who have similar drafts in our folders that also probably share similar sentiments. What times to live through, no?
I feel like we’re living through an extra-long extended nightmare from last March, one with no end in sight. The sense of deja-vu shows up in so many things we do in our everyday lives…including staying afloat to keep the momentum going to go on despite the war-like situation around.
All we need to do is hang in there, for the light to come through, someday. That ray of hope will see us through, Parul.
Hugs, my friend.
❤
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Oh yes, it has become 2020 in repeat mode. But now it became worse than 2020. I feel so sad that the kids are deprived of going to school, playing with their friends, etc. It’s a sort of stealing, right? What did they do! I am trying to stay hopeful, but on some days I find it a little too hard.
Take care, Parul. Stay safe!
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